Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Oh! It's a butterfly!

This is the story of how I got the picture of the blue morpho butterfly. It is the picture of the blue butterfly on this page. It is an awesome promise of God to me. I am using the story of my life to help others. God has used so many things to help change me and strengthen my faith in Him. All you have to do is listen, He has a plan for everyone.

August 13th, 2007 around 9:45 am I was getting ready to sit down and read my bible and pray. But, before I did my dog Taco wanted to go out. I told him you don't need to go out you just came in 45 minutes ago, and you can wait. Yes, I talk to my dog:) He went rrrooo, he was talking to me. I said OK I'll take you out, but your staying out until I get done reading and praying. But first, I had read my notes from church the day before. Prophet Teal preached. He preached on Luke 24: 44-45, where Jesus said He would open their eyes of understanding that they might understand the scriptures, and then receive their calling-power from on high. Well, I was whining and saying God, you have called me and it's taking so long why don't I have the power you promised me? I feel it inside my soul and I long to do your will! Whining and complaining I was!! Taco then said I need to go out. So, I took him out and put him on his chain. As I was coming back up our steps to the deck I looked and saw a towel laying in the foliage under the stairs. I said to myself, those kids always leaving towels out on the deck after they swim. It was a white towel on green foliage. Then I saw a dark gray and black butterfly with spots on it. I said to myself Oh, it's a butterfly! How pretty. Then, it spread it's wings and I just about fell over! It was blue with black and just beautiful. I once again spoke to myself and said that's a blue Morpho butterfly, my butterfly! (When their wings are up their black and gray and brown-camouflaged from prey that want to get them, but when they spread their wings they are blue and black and white and just beautiful) What is it doing in Kentucky?! I want that butterfly. So I carefully got up and came in and asked Autumn if she still had her butterfly net. She said no why? I told her there's a blue Morpho butterfly out back and I want that butterfly!

I went back outside and Autumn went with me. She said mommy, those blue Morphos only live in South America! I said I know, but there's one in my yard and I want it! It's so beautiful, we just looked at it and then it fluttered away. I said Autumn, where did it go? I don't see it, she said it's right beside you on that leaf in the tree. I couldn't see it, then it spread it's wings and I saw it. Beautiful. I said Autumn quietly go get my camera. Yes it stayed there all that time. She did, and I slowly moved my camera to it to take it's picture. She said cover the flash so you don't scare it away. I got right above it took the picture, my heart pounding. I wanted to grab it, and keep it, but I couldn't. I was afraid to touch it. Then I just reached out and touched the tip of it's wing and it fluttered up, I let go of it. I was afraid I would hurt it. It flew away. I watched it fly and as the sun hit it's wings it reflected like a mirror. It was so beautiful. I was in shock and so excited. I couldn't believe of all the places it could be it was in my back yard and I was there at the exact time it was. God used my dog needing to go out to get me to go there and see it. He used my dog to get me there or I never would have went out. I could have went out at any time and it could have been there. But, that wouldn't have been such a God moment as in the way He lined up the circumstances to get me out there! God was talking to me telling me He heard me whining and complaining about not being endued with power from on high to do my calling. The blue Morpho is His promise to me of what He has given me. So, in the midst of me reminding Him and griping He showed me the promise in the blue Morpho butterfly! Not just any butterfly, but the one He gave me that only lives in Central and South America, not Berea, Kentucky. He was telling me Luke 24:49 And, behold, I send the promise of my Father upon you: but tarry ye in the city of Jerusalem, until ye be endued with power from high.

I called a friend to tell her what had happened she wasn't home. Then I called Regina she didn't answer. So, I called another friend who is a pastor, he said Amen sister. Write that down in your journal. God is going to use it. We hung up, and a few minutes later Regina called back. I told her and she knew it was a God thing. I told her this butterfly lives in Central and South America it shouldn't be in Berea, Ky. She said that's God's way of using the promise He gave you to let you know He's going to use you in a mighty way.

I've told the story to alot of of those who know about the blue Morpho in my life and they all agree, God was telling me He is watching over me and is working His plan for my life in Him. I should never get weary because God is always there in every aspect of my life.

I hope this helps someone, it helped me to read it again.

Love ya, Uylonda
PS. I would love to have some comments.....

Friday, January 2, 2009

Only you and God can do it

There are so many people hurting these days and they don't know how to get out of the pain. The only way that I know is to get a hold of God. How do you do that, you ask? Well, get on your knees, read the bible, study on the things that have you bound. God is willing to help you, but you have to take the first step. When I was hurting and in so much pain I sought help everywhere. But, until I turned to the Lord completely nothing changed.

Also, it doesn't matter what anyone else is doing to you in your life. The decision is up to you to change. When you decide to do something about the problems don't worry about the people, or things in your life that are not trying to change. Just deal with yourself. I would always say God, I can't take it anymore, Delorne is a jerk and he doesn't care about anything. And, it was true, he didn't, not even himself. But, I wasn't supposed to worry about him not changing. God, was dealing with me. I found a book called "Lord, Change" me during that time. Not by coincidence either! It almost leaped out at me at the Christian book store. Anyway; that book taught me that I had to change what was within me to change what was around me. When we change our attitude, our mind our outlook on life everything around us changes to. We are different and know how to handle things different. We are to be like Christ. Ask yourself the popular question "What would Jesus do?" And, what would he do in your situation? He would love the people anyway. That is what we are called to do, love the people. It changes them when you change. When I started changing my attitude toward the anger and pain I had, it changed things in my life. I learned to shut my mouth for one. It can get you into so much trouble. Delorne would try to start a argument with me and I would take my kids and leave or not say anything back. Now mind you, I didn't always do that. There were times that I would break over and say something, and away we went into a fight. But, when I kept from saying things back every time, it changed him. I could see that he knew something was going on in me. And, most of all I knew something was changing! It was exciting to me to. I would think wow, I didn't go there God, I listened to you and it feels good. I got stronger emotionally this way. I was leaning on the Lord, and not me. I had no strength to stand anyway, it had been destroyed in the battles long before. So, I built up my strength in God, myself, and moved on. It changed my life, but I had to quit worrying about anyone else or anything else, just me and God.

I urge you, if your dealing with things in your life that are so overwhelming that you think you can't take it. Take it to the Lord, and let Him have it. He wants you to anyway. I read daily devotionals, and focused my mind on them. When I would be in my day and things would start to happen I would think on Gods word in the devotion and what He had spoke to me that morning. That's the only way I made it, by His word. He gave me a scripture one day literally, I picked up my bible and dropped it and as I did this little piece of paper fell out. I picked it up and read it out of curiosity and it was 2 bible verses.

They are Ps. 94:19 In the multitude of my thoughts within me; thy comforts delight my soul. And, Isa. 26:3 Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. I would quote these to myself all the time. I had to know that if I didn't dwell on where I was in my life, God would change it. We cannot change things if we do not do what God says. Give it to Him. Think on Him and His peace and it will give you peace and a strength that you don't have. It is His strength that will pull you through. It will take time though. It took time to get messed up, so it's going to take time to get healed. But, it is so worth what you learn while going through the healing process.

As the saying goes Let go and let God. The way to do that is to (just do it) Let God fill your thoughts with peace and your life will change. Where God is there is peace. Let HIM in. Not, just a little bit, but all the way. You will be glad you did.

Love ya, Uylonda