I wouldn't want to do 2010 over

This has been a year to forget, I mean remember.!! NOT!!! I wouldn't want to do 2010 over, and pray I never have to endure this junk again. One day I will write it all out on here. It won't be to long from now, but not at this moment. My life has been in turmoil for quite a while now, and I am just coming out of the storm. I pray no more. Just this week I have actually felt at peace with how things are starting to look. I know God is in control, and boy have I tested His patience with me in the last year. The devil has thrown so many things in my direction to try and stop my walk with God. I even contemplated some of them. Yes, I have been weak. I still am, but I am getting my strength back. I thank God, that He has not let go of me. We are not worthy of His grace and mercy, but He gives it to us anyway. There have been times this year that I have been so distraught that I would not listen to God. I was so angry and hurt with the ways things were going that I just said not now God. I literally said that. Am I pleased with that? No. Am I ashamed of it? No. I learned a great lesson in the walk I have had with God this year. I am excited to go with the changes that are coming. I have matured in the Lord this year and matured myself this year. We never stop learning as long as we are living if we are open to that opportunity; and I was. I have got to do what I posted in my last post in March of this year. Got to get a grasp of that thing with in me, and change what needs to be changed no matter what. Change for the better is good, and I need that change. Why I have fought it so long I don't know. But, I do know that I don't want to fight that change which needs to be done any more. It is not a coincidence of the things that have happened to get me where I am. I am thankful for it all. I trust in the Lord so much more, and I need to show Him just that. He is waiting on me. I don't have to wait on Him, He just needs to hear me say I am taking that step toward you Lord, and He will run to me when I do. Just like the prodigal son in the bible. He left his father and came back hoping to work as a slave for him, and his father saw him coming home from a long way off and ran to his son. He didn't wait for his son to get there, when he saw him coming home He went to him. The same is true of our Father in Heaven. He will come to us if we just turn to Him. I love Him so, and thank Him for every thing; good and bad. Because His word says, all things work together for good, to those that love the Lord their God. Romans 8:28 And, I love Him so.

Pray for me and I am praying for you, Uylonda

Habits, they keep us where we are.

I haven't written on here in 10 months. I am crying now because I have not had a reason not to. I just let life get in my way. Thinking that no one would want to hear anything I had to say when my life has problems. But you know what? I was wrong. I have talked to people in the last 10 months that needed to hear what I had to say, and thank God I did talk to them because I needed to hear it. Every time we speak of what God has done for us we are doing something good for someone. So, I felt sorry for myself and quit writing. Not gonna do that again :)


So in the last 10 months I have been through a lot, but I am moving on. Anyway; there are things I need to do to better myself, and make myself feel better. I need to loose weight, but it keeps finding me!!!! I know, lame wasn't it? I need to loose weight. I feel bad because of this. I feel bad physically and emotionally. I went to try to buy me something new to wear today, and all I could feel while I was looking at all the clothes was my big belly. Seriously; we had just ate and I felt sick. Not from the food, but from being over weight and miserable. I have needed to loose weight for the last 8 years. Now, I am not huge by any means, but I am to me. I might as well need to loose 100 pounds because what I need to loose is just as hard. I don't know where to start, or let me rephrase that. I don't know how to let go of the things I need to let go of to get started. I know I need to change my HABITS, they are what keeps me where I am. I go to bed every night and say I am going to change in the morning. Morning comes and I say oh I have to do this and this, and it keeps me from doing what I need to really do. I make excuses that is what I do. I have asked God to help me and He does. Then I keep going as if that help isn't even there. Let me explain; I prayed for healing in my body to be able to exercise and I got it. I prayed for the power 90 exercise videos from TV and went to a yard sale and found the entire set for $3.00. Then I prayed for food ideas and found a great video at the store for $1.00. I also found a great website with recipes and food listed in an easy way to read it. I prayed for a free membership to the gym so I could use weights to help strengthen my muscles, and I got it. So; what is my problem? (ME) I am the problem, and until I stop looking at what I am not willing to work to get, I just need to quit whining about being over weight. So tomorrow I am starting over. Please pray for me through this. I don't want to fail, and I don't have any reason to. The only thing keeping me from my goal is ME.

I said that to say this; God wants us to succeed, but we have the power to fail. You know the saying I will when I can get around to it? Well, I had a friend give me a round toit one day. It looks like this O. It's just a round piece of paper with the words a round toit on it. Now I don't have an excuse to not do it. God will provide us with what we need to succeed. We just have to be willing to see that and use it. I am overweight because I keep making excuses to be. I am unhappy with myself because I choose to keep in my life what makes me unhappy. I am tired because I don't use the gym God gave me for free to feel better. I am what ever it is I am because of ME. We have the power to change our lives, and yet we choose to stay bound to the things that keep us miserable. I want things to be different in my life, so what am I waiting for? ME! Everything I need to make a difference in my life is right before me, all I have to do is reach for it and make the change. It's like the words from Michael Jackson's song, If you want to make this world a better place take a look in the mirror and make a change. It is the beginning of a new year, and we have the opportunity to change our lives and those around us so what are we waiting for? I have always been afraid of failure. Afraid to start something because I may fail. But, by not even trying I have failed. And the bible says that fear is not of the Lord. If I have Him, then I can accomplish what it is I need to do. It may not be in the end what I thought it would be, but it will be what God wanted it to be. I may not have gone where I needed to go, but I ended up where God wanted me to be. Oh how we make the way long. Give your problems to the Lord and He will help you. Philippians 4:13 says, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I pray that what ever it is you need, you let God help you. And pray the same for me. Let's stand with the Lord to accomplish what it is we need in our lives.

Be Blessed, Uylonda

The Climb

I love this song, it's about the journey we take that makes us. Listen to the words, and give it a try.

Your Get Up And Go..........

In Malachi 3:10 the Lord says Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the Lord of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it.

He is not just talking about the tithe of money. He is talking about our time and walk with Him as well. We have to give Him our all and not make excuses as to why we don’t do it. It’s a new year and there is so much we can do to change, if we are willing to let the Lord work through us. We just have to be willing to quit listening to our flesh. It is lazy and wants to do nothing that is good for us; or is going to make it have to get up and go. Have you ever thought about it like that? If something is bad for us its not hard to do. Then if something is good for us its hard to do! It takes no effort to sit on the couch and watch TV, or sit at the computer all day. It takes no effort to go through the drive thru at McDonalds, and it takes no effort to grab that bag of chips at home. But, to get up and move to do what is good for you, takes physical and mental and emotional effort. You say you want to loose weight, and start exercising and read your bible more and pray more, and so many other things… Question is, what are you doing to accomplish those goals?

I had a rock one time with a saying on it that said, “ My get up and go got up and went”. I would laugh when I read it, but it was true! I used it as an excuse for myself to laugh, and not do anything about the things I needed to get up and do!! We have got to hear what God is telling us. He is not going to do it for us, we have to use our own (free) will to decide to work with Him. He wants us motivated about what He can do for us, and excited about it. We then can be a witness to others about how we got what God promised us. Do you think that that may be why it’s hard to do the will of God? It will witness to others, and Satan doesn’t want that; therefore he tells us it takes to much effort to read the bible daily. He tells us it takes to much effort to pray daily. He tells us it takes to much effort to get healthy. He is a LIAR!! He tells us all the lies to keep us spiritually bound and mentally bound, and physically and emotionally bound. We stay bound by not getting up and going. Remember if it’s good for you, then you have to work for it, if its bad for you the devil hands it to you. I don’t want anything he has to offer, so this year I am going to get up and get going. Will you?

Love ya, Uylonda

Do you know?

Do you know for sure your going to Heaven? It's not as simple as yes. You have to know within you that you are. Living your life by the design that God made after you received His son as your Savior. That is truly how you will know. Are you reading God's word, are you spending time in prayer; everyday? Are you seeing a change in your life? Do others see that change? If you truly got saved there is a change within you that resonates on the outside of you. You can't know Jesus, and stay the same way you were before you got saved. Galatians 6:7 says Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. 8: For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; (death) but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting. What are you doing with your life? There is a complete change in you when you start to live for God, with His son Jesus as your Savior. Do you still cuss, still watch things that God wouldn't want you to. Go places that you shouldn't. Don't think that God is not watching and not judging.

That change is not only spiritual, but emotional and it will change you physically. There will be a peace about you that others see, and want to have. That peace is Jesus. Do you have peace? He says in the bible that His peace passes all understanding. Do you have that peace? The only way to have it is through Jesus as your Savior living within you. Think about that for a while. If He is in you how can you not have peace? He is to be your focus, not your trials and troubles. Not your bills, or your kids, or your husband or your job etc. Jesus is to be your focus. When bad things happen, and they will; even as a child of God. But, with the peace of Jesus living in you and you looking to Him you handle it in a different way. We are not supposed to be depressed as Christians. When bad things happen our flesh wants to focus on that, and tear us down. But, with the peace of Jesus living in you and you giving the problem to Him it doesn't destroy you.

I'll give you an example in my life of how I know that Jesus lives in me and I am truly saved. My husband fell off of a roof in February of this year, and he works for himself. So, this could have destroyed us, but it didn't. We gave the problem to the Lord, and didn't worry about it. You may say how can you do that? Well, we had no choice but to trust Him. He told us He would supply all our needs, Philippians 4:19 says But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus, and He did. God delivered us out of it without a financial crisis. We never missed a house payment, or any of our other bills. We were supplied for without asking anyone for help. They all called us and came by with food, and money, or mailed money to help pay our bills. (I know the world helps people to, but with worry and fear.) I had no fear through this. I trusted God to supply what we needed and He did. Even if it had of meant that we lost our house and had to move into an apartment etc., we were fine with the outcome. How, because of the peace that passes all understanding that we can't explain. I had so much peace through that trial that I can't explain it except it be for Jesus. Thank you Lord, I love you so much with all my heart and soul. As the song says, Jesus bring the rain. It's meaning is God, if that's what it takes for me to love you then bring the rain. I will worship and adore you and praise you through the rain. I have had a lot of rain in my life, and I didn't always praise Him. There were times that I thought I would lose my mind, and times that I thought that if I just ended my life the pain would all go away!! I was so wrong. I was in so much pain, I was looking at me and not Jesus. That is why I can now say that if you Know Jesus you can't be miserable. He has changed me from the inside out. Every day is a new day to praise Him and love Him and Thank Him for ALL that is good in it.

Do you know Jesus, and that kind of peace? If not, then bow your head and ask Him for that peace. He will not ignore you. He is waiting for you right now. All you have to do is say this: Jesus, please forgive me of my sins, come into my life and Save me. I believe that you died on the cross to save me from my sins. And I want that peace within that you say surpasses all our understanding. I love you Lord Jesus, my redeemer and friend. And I am now a child of God. Thank you Lord God. In Jesus name, Amen

If you said that prayer with all sincerity He is just, and saved you from your sins. It's now up to You, not Him to change you. It starts with you. Make that change to change your life one day at a time. He is waiting to bless you with that peace. He loves you enough to do that. Philippians 4:6 says Be anxious for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made know unto God, 7: And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

I love you with love of Christ that's in me, Uylonda

You can't be miserable if you know Jesus.......

What? Yes it's true, if you know Jesus you shouldn't be miserable. He is life and peace and happiness. Nehemiah 8:10 says, for the joy of the Lord is your strength. Do you have joy? There is nothing sad or bad or mad about Him. So, if you are any of those things, think on Jesus and be changed. I was driving the other day and this just popped into my mind. You can't be miserable if you know Jesus. I was thinking about things going on in my life with people in it who are miserable. They proclaim to know and love Jesus, but they are so miserable. All they do is complain about this or that, and their never truly happy with anything! Some of these people look as if they they could just explode with anger and venom and hate and unhappiness at ANY minute. Is this showing the love of Jesus in your life? I don't think so. It is sad when I see people like this, and I see people like this every where. I was at a salon yesterday and a lady working the counter looked so sad behind her eyes. I prayed for her peace; I know she needs it. She was just so sad behind her eyes. Anyway, are you one of those people who proclaim to be born again, a child of God, and a lover of Jesus? If so, have you looked in a mirror lately? Do you look like a person who is happy and joyful, or mad, sad and not glad about anything? This is something to think about; it's serious. It shows the true nature of your heart. How do people act around you? Are they glad to see you, or glad when you leave? Are you joyful in your heart? Are you someone you would truly want to be friends with? If Jesus is love and He is, and He says to think on things that are pure and true and lovely to stay happy and peaceful then why is it most people think on the pain of the past that they can't change, or why do they think on the pain of today, or why do they think of the things that they have no control over and let it destroy them? Why do people think on negative things when God says think on the positive? Give this some real thought, are you really happy or just acting happy? As I said in my last post, Jesus says if there be any of these things peace love joy happiness, think on these things. This is what truly gives us a positive outlook on life. How can you honestly think that if you think about all the junk in your life that it's not going to affect you in a negative way? Give it a moment and think about what truly makes you happy right now, and then after that minute think about what is not making you happy right now and weigh the measure of how your heart felt. God doesn't say there won't be things go wrong in our lives, but He does say don't let those things destroy you. Don't let them make you into something you truly don't want to be. In 2 Corinthians 12: 7-10 it says And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundnce of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure. 8  For this thing I besought the Lord three times, that it might depart from me.  9  And He said unto me.  (My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.)  Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  10  Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in destresses for Christ's sake:  for when I am weak, then am I strong..   He is strong in our weaknesses. Glory to Him, and this thorn etc...  We are to thank God always, this gives us strength to fight Satan our enemy who is the one who makes us weak. There is no weakness in God, so to stand on His word and proclaim it over our lives this is what will make it a positive happy joyful life. Do what God says and you won't be miserable no matter the circumstances.  It's true if you give it a chance, I'm living proof..

Love ya, Uylonda
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I was just reading a devotional about Jesus storing up our treasures and I started thinking about other stuff to. As I was reading; for some reason I started thinking about my dad. He is having surgery once again tomorrow to remove cancer polyps from his bladder. I know he is in God's hands, but I am concerned for him, and rightfully so. I started thinking about the time on fathers day 2007 that he almost left us for Heaven. We watched as he struggled for air and realized how we could be without him. I have never told him this, but he's reading it now. I was scared and sad. I saw my dad, this strong man I had looked up to laying there on the hospital bed looking like a little child. He was so sick, and I was helpless to help him; other than pray. Prayer was the only thing any of us could do at that time, and it worked. I have had friends praying for him for the past two years. Every once in awhile I will run into someone I haven't seen in awhile and they will ask, how is your dad? They say I have been praying for him. When he was sick that fathers day and I watched him curled up on that bed trying to find a way to breathe, he was helpless. I ran my hand through his hair to let him know I was there. He looked up to see who it was, and I believe he was surprised. I wanted him to know that I was there. I want him to know that I love him, and I don't want to lose him, not yet.

As I was thinking about his struggle to breathe I thought about peoples relationships with God. Some times it's hard to breathe and we struggle, but God is right there. He is stroking our brow and holding us close to let us know that he is there. But, do we recognize Him? Or do we just feel something and not think about it and go on suffering? God wants you to trust in Him in every situation of your lives, but do you?

I will continually give God Praise

Hebrews 13:15 By him therefore let us offer the sacrifice of praise to God continually, that is the fruit of our lips giving thanks to His name.
Ps 3:3 No weapon formed against us shall prosper
I am going through some things in my life right now, and I need to write, it soothes my soul. I have looked at this page for the last hour or so trying to decide if I should write or not. I have no doubts in God, but in myself there are some. I truly believe His word, and I know that all things happen for a reason. And they are to help you grow in your walk and trust Him more. I am growing and I do trust Him. I just need reminded of this myself right now. We, my husband and I have been growing in the Lord so much lately, personally and together. But today we are going through some tough storms. When I look at them through my eyes I am overwhelmed, but when I look at them spiritually I am at peace with the Lord. For I know He has a plan in all things, but in the natural flesh I am overwhelmed. Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

(Wow, did I need to read that!! I had wrote the top paragraph a couple weeks ago and just now got back to it. Seems like in my darkest times He lifts me up.)

My husband and I talked some today about things that are happening with us. We know God has a plan, but I was upset today. I cried and said to my husband you know the people in the desert with Moses must have went crazy not knowing what was going on. Their life had changed over night, and now their in the desert living off Manna from Heaven! Well, so am I. We have been taken care of by the Lord for so long, and I have complained so much. Our life changed so quickly from smooth and good to who knows whats next. I like security. I like knowing what is going on and what is going to happen. But, we do know that God is in control.

We are to put as much effort into believing in the Lord to take care of us, as we put into thinking about what we think is not being taken care of! Oh my! I was flipping through the Tv channels, and I came across TBN, the Christian channel. A movie was just coming on and I knew it was about the Holocaust. The trains and people screaming and the guards pushing and the caos was so loud. I then realized I had seen this movie before. It is the true story of Corie Tenboom a true believer in the Lord. As I watched the first 5 minutes or so of the movie, knowing I wasn't going to watch it all, I felt sick and nervous. Just seeing how those women and children were destroyed hurt my heart. I thought of me and my 10 year old baby being done like those people were, and I just couldn't watch anymore of it again. I then remembered how I cried and complained today to my husband about our life going in the direction it's going. I just want things to be the way they use to be, secure. I know that as those women were going through what they went through they were feeling the same way I am. Only they had it so much worse than me. I said I'm sorry Lord and I want to do better. In the movie, Corrie had faith in God that He would supply and take care of her. And He did in the midst of this crazy awful mess of the Holocaust. She went on to write books and speak about how God cared for her through it all. She was so positive until she died. God is telling me to have faith in Him no matter what. We have got to have a positive attitude in everything. He said we are to praise Him in all things. If we therefore praise Him when things go so wrong, and we can't figure them out then He will supply; all we have to do is look around and see it. If we praise Him when we have little, then when we have much we will praise Him to. He wants to be praised Always. Yes, we are human but He is God, and if we only believe in Him when things aren't going our way our faith will be strong. We need to give more thought to His ways than our ways, this is how we become stronger in the Lord and can become what He wants us to be. Which is the best Christian we can be. He tells us in His word, (Philippians 4:7 if we only think on these things the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus In Philippians 4:8 it says Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.) There is something to praise Him for in every situation of our lives. Our lives reflect what we think. Do we think we can't, so we don't? Or do we think we can and, we do? I found a saying last week and I made a small poster of it for me. It says: What are you doing to get there? Why am I crying and complaining if I'm not doing all that I can to get where I need to be? I have to believe in the God I serve and what He says will be, will be.

These words may not be for everyone, but they are for me. If something isn't the way you think it should be in your life change it. How? By doing what God says to do, (Philippians 4:7 if we only think on these things the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus In Philippians 4:8 it says Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.) When you do what He says to do, the way He says to do it, He won't fail. You might when you quit thinking His way about life, but He never fails. He can not fail, we can and we do. I am accountable for the words I write, and I have to live by them. I am taking these words of mine inspired by Him and taking His words doing something to get where I want to be. Psalms 78:8 My mouth is filled with your praise, declaring your splendor all day long.

Lift me up in prayer, as I will lift you up, Love ya, Uylonda

Oh! It's a butterfly!

This is the story of how I got the picture of the blue morpho butterfly. It is the picture of the blue butterfly on this page. It is an awesome promise of God to me. I am using the story of my life to help others. God has used so many things to help change me and strengthen my faith in Him. All you have to do is listen, He has a plan for everyone.

August 13th, 2007 around 9:45 am I was getting ready to sit down and read my bible and pray. But, before I did my dog Taco wanted to go out. I told him you don't need to go out you just came in 45 minutes ago, and you can wait. Yes, I talk to my dog:) He went rrrooo, he was talking to me. I said OK I'll take you out, but your staying out until I get done reading and praying. But first, I had read my notes from church the day before. Prophet Teal preached. He preached on Luke 24: 44-45, where Jesus said He would open their eyes of understanding that they might understand the scriptures, and then receive their calling-power from on high. Well, I was whining and saying God, you have called me and it's taking so long why don't I have the power you promised me? I feel it inside my soul and I long to do your will! Whining and complaining I was!! Taco then said I need to go out. So, I took him out and put him on his chain. As I was coming back up our steps to the deck I looked and saw a towel laying in the foliage under the stairs. I said to myself, those kids always leaving towels out on the deck after they swim. It was a white towel on green foliage. Then I saw a dark gray and black butterfly with spots on it. I said to myself Oh, it's a butterfly! How pretty. Then, it spread it's wings and I just about fell over! It was blue with black and just beautiful. I once again spoke to myself and said that's a blue Morpho butterfly, my butterfly! (When their wings are up their black and gray and brown-camouflaged from prey that want to get them, but when they spread their wings they are blue and black and white and just beautiful) What is it doing in Kentucky?! I want that butterfly. So I carefully got up and came in and asked Autumn if she still had her butterfly net. She said no why? I told her there's a blue Morpho butterfly out back and I want that butterfly!

I went back outside and Autumn went with me. She said mommy, those blue Morphos only live in South America! I said I know, but there's one in my yard and I want it! It's so beautiful, we just looked at it and then it fluttered away. I said Autumn, where did it go? I don't see it, she said it's right beside you on that leaf in the tree. I couldn't see it, then it spread it's wings and I saw it. Beautiful. I said Autumn quietly go get my camera. Yes it stayed there all that time. She did, and I slowly moved my camera to it to take it's picture. She said cover the flash so you don't scare it away. I got right above it took the picture, my heart pounding. I wanted to grab it, and keep it, but I couldn't. I was afraid to touch it. Then I just reached out and touched the tip of it's wing and it fluttered up, I let go of it. I was afraid I would hurt it. It flew away. I watched it fly and as the sun hit it's wings it reflected like a mirror. It was so beautiful. I was in shock and so excited. I couldn't believe of all the places it could be it was in my back yard and I was there at the exact time it was. God used my dog needing to go out to get me to go there and see it. He used my dog to get me there or I never would have went out. I could have went out at any time and it could have been there. But, that wouldn't have been such a God moment as in the way He lined up the circumstances to get me out there! God was talking to me telling me He heard me whining and complaining about not being endued with power from on high to do my calling. The blue Morpho is His promise to me of what He has given me. So, in the midst of me reminding Him and griping He showed me the promise in the blue Morpho butterfly! Not just any butterfly, but the one He gave me that only lives in Central and South America, not Berea, Kentucky. He was telling me Luke 24:49 And, behold, I send the promise of my Father upon you: but tarry ye in the city of Jerusalem, until ye be endued with power from high.

I called a friend to tell her what had happened she wasn't home. Then I called Regina she didn't answer. So, I called another friend who is a pastor, he said Amen sister. Write that down in your journal. God is going to use it. We hung up, and a few minutes later Regina called back. I told her and she knew it was a God thing. I told her this butterfly lives in Central and South America it shouldn't be in Berea, Ky. She said that's God's way of using the promise He gave you to let you know He's going to use you in a mighty way.

I've told the story to alot of of those who know about the blue Morpho in my life and they all agree, God was telling me He is watching over me and is working His plan for my life in Him. I should never get weary because God is always there in every aspect of my life.

I hope this helps someone, it helped me to read it again.

Love ya, Uylonda
PS. I would love to have some comments.....

Only you and God can do it

There are so many people hurting these days and they don't know how to get out of the pain. The only way that I know is to get a hold of God. How do you do that, you ask? Well, get on your knees, read the bible, study on the things that have you bound. God is willing to help you, but you have to take the first step. When I was hurting and in so much pain I sought help everywhere. But, until I turned to the Lord completely nothing changed.

Also, it doesn't matter what anyone else is doing to you in your life. The decision is up to you to change. When you decide to do something about the problems don't worry about the people, or things in your life that are not trying to change. Just deal with yourself. I would always say God, I can't take it anymore, Delorne is a jerk and he doesn't care about anything. And, it was true, he didn't, not even himself. But, I wasn't supposed to worry about him not changing. God, was dealing with me. I found a book called "Lord, Change" me during that time. Not by coincidence either! It almost leaped out at me at the Christian book store. Anyway; that book taught me that I had to change what was within me to change what was around me. When we change our attitude, our mind our outlook on life everything around us changes to. We are different and know how to handle things different. We are to be like Christ. Ask yourself the popular question "What would Jesus do?" And, what would he do in your situation? He would love the people anyway. That is what we are called to do, love the people. It changes them when you change. When I started changing my attitude toward the anger and pain I had, it changed things in my life. I learned to shut my mouth for one. It can get you into so much trouble. Delorne would try to start a argument with me and I would take my kids and leave or not say anything back. Now mind you, I didn't always do that. There were times that I would break over and say something, and away we went into a fight. But, when I kept from saying things back every time, it changed him. I could see that he knew something was going on in me. And, most of all I knew something was changing! It was exciting to me to. I would think wow, I didn't go there God, I listened to you and it feels good. I got stronger emotionally this way. I was leaning on the Lord, and not me. I had no strength to stand anyway, it had been destroyed in the battles long before. So, I built up my strength in God, myself, and moved on. It changed my life, but I had to quit worrying about anyone else or anything else, just me and God.

I urge you, if your dealing with things in your life that are so overwhelming that you think you can't take it. Take it to the Lord, and let Him have it. He wants you to anyway. I read daily devotionals, and focused my mind on them. When I would be in my day and things would start to happen I would think on Gods word in the devotion and what He had spoke to me that morning. That's the only way I made it, by His word. He gave me a scripture one day literally, I picked up my bible and dropped it and as I did this little piece of paper fell out. I picked it up and read it out of curiosity and it was 2 bible verses.

They are Ps. 94:19 In the multitude of my thoughts within me; thy comforts delight my soul. And, Isa. 26:3 Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. I would quote these to myself all the time. I had to know that if I didn't dwell on where I was in my life, God would change it. We cannot change things if we do not do what God says. Give it to Him. Think on Him and His peace and it will give you peace and a strength that you don't have. It is His strength that will pull you through. It will take time though. It took time to get messed up, so it's going to take time to get healed. But, it is so worth what you learn while going through the healing process.

As the saying goes Let go and let God. The way to do that is to (just do it) Let God fill your thoughts with peace and your life will change. Where God is there is peace. Let HIM in. Not, just a little bit, but all the way. You will be glad you did.

Love ya, Uylonda

From a caterpillar to a Butterfly!!

I told you awhile back that I would post my testimony some day, well here it is. I hope it is a blessing to you, and that you share it with someone male or female. I believe it will help them. I needed to read this again myself. I spoke this at our churches women's trip to Tennessee a couple of years ago. God was all over it, I cant write that way without Him. He is awesome and I love Him with all of my heart and soul.

It starts out with a story I found on the Internet while I was looking up butterflies.

YOUR COMFORT ZONE

Winter is ending. You’ve been wrapped in a cocoon of a warm house or warm clothes to stay comfortable and protected from the elements.
Now spring is arriving. The weather is warming up, the flowers are blooming and the clear skies and sun are pulling you out into the beautiful world. You no longer need your protective cocoon.
This changing of the seasons draws you out of your cocoon of warmth to the warming rays of the sun. As the butterfly spreads its wings as it emerges from it's cocoon, it's life is transformed. The caterpillar was limited to crawling slowing from leaf to leaf. The world has opened up to the butterfly; it is no longer bound to the area it could crawl to.
Your life can be transformed like the butterfly's. Most of you live in a cocoon of safety, called your comfort zone, to protect yourselves from the elements. You are accustomed to the routine of your lives. You know what to expect each day as you crawl out from under your warm covers.
Your comfort zone keeps you safe. But your comfort zone limits you, just as the caterpillar is limited when compared to the butterfly. To the caterpillar, life is fine. There are branches to climb. There are leaves to eat. It can even use the leaves to hide from the birds of prey.
But to the observer who can see the whole picture the reality of the caterpillar's life is very limited. That observer can see the possibilities of transformation that lie ahead for the caterpillar. That observer can also see the possibilities of transformation that can lie ahead for you.
Your comfort zone limits you in the same way the caterpillar is limited. The vision of the caterpillar is limited to a few feet around it. It cannot even imagine a life beyond it's vision. But the caterpillar is lucky. Nature has provided a path that will transform it into a butterfly with a hugely expanded vision. It doesn't have a choice.
You also have a path of possibilities. But instead of nature making the transformation for you, you have to do it yourselves. You do have a choice. You do have a vision beyond your comfort zone. But your comfort zone wraps you tightly to keep you safe. You may not be able to even imagine the possibilities in store for you that the observer can see, but you do have a vision beyond your life today.
Break out of your limiting comfort zone, just like the butterfly emerges from it's cocoon. Do what is uncomfortable. Do what scares you. Do what stretches your limits. The more you do, the more your vision expands and the more you can see is possible for you.
Breaking out of your comfort zone does amazing things for you. It transforms your life, just like the butterfly's life is transformed. Today, just like the caterpillar, you cannot even imagine what your life can be like. But just like the butterfly, you can emerge from your comfort zone into a life of limitless possibilities and beauty.

MY TESTIMONY: BY UYLONDA SMITH

I WOULD LIKE TO START BY SAYING THAT I AM A BUTTERFLY. I ONCE WAS A CATERPILLAR READY TO STAY IN MY COCOON AND EVENTUALLY DIE THERE. BUT, GOD RAISED ME UP OUT OF MY PIT TO BE USED FOR HIS GLORY. THE TRIALS I WENT THROUGH MADE ME STRONGER IN MY WALK WITH HIM. I USED TO FOCUS ON ME AND MY PROBLEMS IN THE SMALL AREA I COULD CRAWL TO. BUT, GOD CHANGED ME WHEN I ASKED HIM TO HELP ME AND I BEGAN SEEKING HIM. I AM FREE TODAY FROM THE TRIALS OF MY PAST. FREE TO WORK FOR THE LORD TO DO HIS WILL, AND TO HELP OTHERS OVERCOME THEIR TRIALS AND FLY AWAY TO JESUS!!!

TO BE A BUTTERFLY YOU HAVE TO HAVE BEEN A CATERPILLAR FIRST. WE HAVE TO HAVE STRUGGLES TO BE ABLE TO BE SET FREE, AND SEE WHERE GOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN IN OUR LIFE.

THE TITLE OF MY DEVOTION IS…….

FROM A CATERPILLAR TO A BUTTERFLY

A CATERPILLAR IN A COCOON IS UGLY AND LOCKED UP.
A BUTTERFLY IS BEAUTIFUL AND FREE.

Ps. 138:7 says Thou I walk in the midst of trouble thou wilt revive me; thou shalt stretch forth thine hand against the wrath of mine enemies, and thy right hand shall save me.

FIVE YEARS AGO GOD TOOK ME
FROM A CATERPILLAR, AND CHANGED ME
INTO A BUTTERFLY BECAUSE I HAD BEEN PRAYING AND STUDYING ON HOW TO BE FREE FROM THE CHAINS OF BONDAGE I WAS IN.

GOD TOLD ME THROUGH MY WRITING, STUDYING AND PRAYER THAT I WAS BEING TRANSFORMED FROM THE CATERPILLAR IN THE SAFETY OF MY SELF INFLICTED COCOON INTO HIS BUTTERFLY.

AT THE TIME, I HAD BEEN PREPARING FOR A
DAY TRIP WITH THE LADIES IN OUR BIBLE
STUDY GROUP. THEY WERE ALSO MY FRIENDS AND
PRAYER PARTNERS.

GOD HAD TOLD ME TO BE HEALED OF THE PAIN HOLDING ME IN BONDAGE I HAD TO TELL WHAT ALL HE HAD DONE FOR ME. NOT JUST WHAT I FELT COMFORTABLE TELLING. NOT TELLING ANYONE AND NOT GETTING RID OF IT THE DEVIL COULD STILL USE IT AGAINST ME, AND GET INTO MY MIND WITH IT. I WAS AFRAID TO TELL. AND THE DEVIL MADE SURE I STAYED THAT WAY, UNTIL I DID AS GOD HAD SAID TO DO.

I NEEDED TO SHARE THIS WITH LADIES I FELT SAFE TELLING IT TO. TO GO AND JUST TELL ANYONE WOULDN’T HAVE BEEN GODS WAY OF HEALING ME. IN THIS ENVIRONMENT I WAS SAFE TO NOT BE JUDGED OR TALKED ABOUT. TO TELL JUST ANYONE WOULD HAVE BEEN FUTILE IN GODS WORK. I NEEDED HIM TO HEAL ME THE WAY HE TOLD ME TO.

THE LADIES AND I WENT TO CUMBERLAND FALLS FOR THE DAY, AND IT WAS AWESOME. THE PRESENCE OF GOD WAS SO STRONG ALL DAY, AND WE PRAYED FOR AN HOUR AND A HALF BEFORE I STOOD TO TELL MY STORY, OF BEING TRANSFORMED FROM A CATERPILLAR INTO A BUTTERFLY.

GOD TOOK THE PAIN I HAD WENT THROUGH THAT WAS MEANT FOR EVIL, AND TURNED IT INTO GOOD WHEN I LET GO OF IT AND GAVE IT TO HIM THAT DAY. MY LIFE CHANGED FROM THERE.

MY HUSBAND WAS SAVED 8 YEARS AGO ON OCTOBER 29TH, 2000. SO I’LL GO BACK A LITTLE BIT TO THEN. A YEAR OR SO AFTER MY HUSBAND GOT SAVED I WAS DRIVING DOWN THE ROAD TALKING TO GOD. I WAS TELLING HIM HOW I WAS STILL HURTING, THAT EVEN THOUGH MY HUSBAND WAS SAVED, AND ITS WHAT I HAD PRAYED FOR, FOR YEARS I WAS STILL HURTING. I SAID GOD, I DON’T LOVE HIM. I’M ONLY WITH HIM BECAUSE OF YOU. I WANT TO LEAVE. I HATE HIM MY LOVE FOR HIM IS DEAD. (INSTANTLY I HEARD GOD SPEAK TO WHERE I TURNED MY HEAD TO SEE) HE SAID…I CAN RAISE THE DEAD, IF YOU WILL LET ME, AND I WILL MAKE YOUR MARRIAGE BETTER THAN IT EVER WAS BEFORE. I WAS SHOCKED!! NOT BECAUSE GOD SPOKE TO ME, BUT BECAUSE I HAD NEVER THOUGHT OF IT THAT WAY! I’D ALWAYS THOUGHT OF GOD RAISING DEAD PEOPLE, BUT A DEAD LOVE? SO, I SAID OK GOD, I’LL TRUST YOU, BUT YOU HAVE TO LOVE HIM THROUGH ME WITH YOUR LOVE, BECAUSE I’M NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO LOVE HIM MYSELF RIGHT NOW.

EZ 37:3-5 SAYS…AND HE SAID UNTO ME, SON OF MAN, CAN THESE BONES LIVE? AND I ANSWERED, O LORD GOD, THOU KNOWEST. 4. AGAIN HE SAID UNTO ME, PROPHESY UPON THESE BONES, AND SAY UNTO THEM, O YE DRY BONES, HEAR THE WORD OF THE LORD. 5. THUS SAITH THE LORD GOD UNTO THESE BONES; BEHOLD, I WILL CAUSE BREATH TO ENTER INTO YOU, AND YE SHALL LIVE:

DO WHAT GOD SAYS AND HE BRINGS LIFE INTO YOUR SITUATION. IF YOU WILL LET HIM. Bro. GREG SLAYTON PREACHED AWHILE BACK ABOUT DRY BONES AND SAID WHAT GOD ASKS OF YOU, IT CAN LIVE. GOD ASKED ME TO LET HIM RAISE UP MY MARRIAGE SO IT COULD LIVE. BUT HE WOULDN’T GO AGAINST MY WILL. GOD WON’T GO AGAINST YOUR WILL TO HOLD ON TO THE CHAINS. HE’S WAITING UNTIL YOUR TIRED OF THEM. REPENT OF YOUR WILL, AND WRONGS, AND YOU WILL GET LOOSED. I WAS STANDING IN THE WAY AND I HAD TO LET GOD MOVE FOR ME. I HAD TO LISTEN TO HIM! AND YOU HAVE TO TAKE TIME FOR GOD FOR THINGS TO CHANGE. OBEY HIM!!! NOTHING HAPPENS FAST. LOOK AT THE PROCESS THE CATERPILLAR GOES THROUGH TO BECOME A BUTTERFLY! A CATERPILLAR DOESN’T KNOW HOW TO BE A BUTTERFLY. IT HAS TO RELY ON GOD TO MAKE THE CHANGE.

WELL I WENT ON TO TELL THE LADIES HOW I SUFFERED IN MY MARRIAGE BECAUSE OF THE DRUG ADDICTION MY HUSBAND HAD, AND I TOLD THEM OF THE PHYSICAL ABUSE I SUFFERED. I’D BEEN WITNESSING ABOUT THIS FOR 2 YEARS AND I WAS STILL IN BONDAGE, UNTIL I ALSO LET GO OF THE PAIN OF THE ADULTERY HE HAD COMMITED. I HAD KEPT THIS A SECRET, TELLING NO ONE. IT HURT TO MUCH. BY DOING THIS AND KEEPING IT TO MYSELF THE DEVIL COULD PLAY ME LIKE A FIDDLE AND HE DID. EVERY DAY I STRUGGLED BECAUSE I HADN’T LET IT GO. BY NOT TELLING ANYONE I STAYED IN BONDAGE AND WAS CHAINED TO THE PAIN. I COULD TESTIFY ABOUT WHAT GOD HAD SET ME FREE FROM IN MY MARRIAGE WITH THE DRUGS AND ABUSE AND IT SOUNDED GOOD! BUT I HAD BEEN SET FREE FROM THE ADULTERY AS WELL, BUT NO ONE KNEW IT. I WOULD MOVE FORWARD IN MY WALK 2 STEPS AND BE DRAGGED BACK 3. I KEPT SAYING GOD WHY?! HE KEPT TELLING ME, AND THEN ONE DAY I HEARD HIM. HE SAID I WANT TO USE ALL OF YOUR TESTIMONY FOR MY GLORY NOT JUST WHAT YOU FEEL LIKE TELLING. TELL IT AND BE SET FREE AND HELP SET OTHERS FREE TOO! HOW COULD HE USE ME COMPLETELY IF I WAS AFRAID AND EMBARRASSED ABOUT WHAT I HAD BEEN SET FREE FROM? THE DRUGS AND ABUSE I COULD DEAL WITH, BUT THE ADULTERY TORE ME APART. IT SENT ME INTO A DEPRESSION TO WHERE I WAS IN A COCOON AND I DIDN’T WANT TO COME OUT. BUT, IT ALSO SENT ME INTO THE COCOON WITH GOD. HE WAS WITH ME ALWAYS.

I WAS AT A POINT IN MY LIFE AFTER ALL OF THIS MESS HAPPENED THAT I WROTE IN MY JOURNAL AND DIDN’T WRITE IN IT AGAIN FOR THREE AND A HALF YEARS. I HAD KEPT A JOURNAL SINCE I WAS 12. I PICKED IT UP ONE DAY TO SEE WHY I HADN’T WROTE IN IT FOR SO LONG. THIS IS WHY. MAY 1999.… I STILL HURT EVERYDAY, I AM NOW. I LIVE BY GODS GRACE, IF IT WEREN’T FOR HIM HOLDING ME I’D BE NUTS. I CAN DRIVE MYSELF CRAZY THINKING. I MEAN IF I THOUGHT ABOUT IT ANYMORE THAN I DO, AND IF GOD WASN’T IN MY HEART AND LIFE I WOULD BE NUTS. I DON’T KNOW WHERE ELSE I’D BE. IT’S A DAILY STRUGGLE TO STAY AND A STRUGGLE NOT TO LEAVE. ALL I CAN SAY IS THANK GOD I'M OK. MY KIDS NEED ME. I NEED ME AND I WANT ME BACK, BUT I’VE CLOSED AND LOCKED THE DOOR AND I DON’T KNOW HOW TO OPEN IT BACK UP. GOD KNOWS I WANT TO, BUT I'M AFRAID TO PUT THE EFFORT INTO IT. I DON’T KNOW WHATS OUT THERE IF I DO. I FEEL LIKE IT WOULD BE OK BUT AT THE SAME TIME I'M TO TIRED TO TAKE THE EFFORT TO WORK ON IT. I PRAY FOR ME AND MY FAMILY DAILY. I TALK TO GOD ALL THE TIME. HE IS MY STRENGTH. I HAVE NONE. HE’S DOING IT ALL FOR ME. HE BRUSHES MY HAIR, AND PUTS ON MY MAKE UP AND CLEANS THE HOUSE AND BUYS THE GROCERIES AND WASHES THE DISHES AND KISSES DELORNE AND BREATHES FOR ME AND HOLDS MY KIDS, I HONESTLY DON’T DO ANYTHING. I’M PARALYZED AND GOD IS MOVING MY BODY TO KEEP IT FROM DYING.

I WAS IN BONDAGE AND CHAINED TO THE PAIN. I COULDN’T LET GO OF IT. I NEEDED THE PAIN TO SURVIVE.

WELL, A YEAR AND A HALF LATER MY HUSBAND GOT SAVED AND WE STARTED LIVING FOR GOD AND GETTING INVOLVED IN CHURCH. I WAS CHANGING MY LIFE AND I WAS RELEASED FROM THE CHAINS OF BONDAGE BY LOOKING TO JESUS FOR MY STRENGTH, BUT BECAUSE OF MY UNBELIEF I WOULD STAND THERE AFRAID TO MOVE BECAUSE MAYBE I REALLY WASN’T FREE. TO BE TRULY FREE, YOU HAVE TO RECOGNIZE THAT YOU ARE FREE. THEN SOMETHING GOOD WOULD HAPPEN AND I’D FEEL FREE AND GO FORWARD, ONLY TO GET TO THE END OF MY CHAIN AND IT WOULD YANK ME BACK TO THE SAFETY OF MY COCOON. THEN I’D FEEL FREE A LITTLE LATER AND GO FORWARD LIKE A BARKING DOG RUNNING ON A CHAIN AND THE CHAIN WOULD YANK ME BACK AND I’D GO CRYING TO MY COCOON AGAIN. SAFETY THERE-STAY THERE IT’S TO HARD TO LET GO OF THE CHAIN. BUT
WITH GOD YOU HAVE THE POWER TO DROP THE CHAINS AND FLY AWAY.

TO BE FREE, I HAD TO PREPARE MYSELF.
EPH 6:13 SAYS: WHEREFORE TAKE UNTO YOU THE WHOLE ARMOUR OF GOD, THAT YE MAY BE ABLE TO WITHSTAND IN THE EVIL DAY, AND HAVING DONE ALL, TO STAND. OUR ARMOUR IS HIS WORD. WE HAVE TO PREPARE TO BE ABLE TO STAND AND ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING FOR GOD. PREPARE BY DAILY STUDY OF GODS WORD AND PRAY. THE REASON WE GET YANKED BACK DOWN BY THE CHAIN WHEN WE’RE AT THE END, IS BECAUSE WE HAVEN’T DONE ALL TO PREPARE TO STAND. JOYCE MEYER SAID…IT’S EASY TO QUIT, IT TAKES FAITH TO GO THROUGH. YOU HAVE TO STAY WITH IT! KEEP GOING TOWARD GOD, DON’T STOP!!

WELL I WAS LIVING MY LIFE BUT, I WAS STILL STRUGGLING WHEN I HAD A DREAM THAT I PULLED A WORM OUT OF MY EYE, AND I WAS EMBARRASSED IN THE DREAM! I KNEW IT WASN’T JUST ANY DREAM. IT WAS DIFFERENT THAN ANY DREAM I’D EVER HAD BEFORE. I ASKED GOD WHAT DOES IT MEAN BECAUSE I COULDN’T LET IT GO. I KNEW IT WAS MORE THAN A DREAM. AND I HAD TO FIND OUT WHAT IT MEANT. IT WAS A HEALING DREAM. GOD TOLD ME TO LOOK UP THE DEFINITION OF EACH OUTSTANDING WORD IN THE STRONGS CONCORDANCE I DID, I WAS FLOORED!! I FOUND OUT I WAS STILL CHAINED TO THE PAST AND THE PAIN. I WAS ONLY ACTING FREE.

THE DEFINITION OF MY DREAM IS…….

THE WORD PULLED MEANS IN HEBREW: TO TEAR AWAY, DESTROY OR PLUCK THE ROOT, DELIVER UP, RESTORE, SHOOT FORTH AND UP. AND, TO BE HEALED AND BRING FORTH CHANGE!!!

FREE LIKE A BUTTERFLY TO GO UP TO JESUS. HALLELUJAH!!!!

THE WORD WORM IN HEBREW MEANS SENSE OF BREEDING, RAPIDLY BRED. BUT A ROOT OF THE WORD IS TO RISE, EXALT, GET ONESELF UP, MOUNT UP!!
THE WORM IS A REFERENCE TO THE CATERPILLAR. A CATERPILLAR TURNS INTO A
BUTTERFLY AND RISES UP, IS EXALTED, MOUNTS UP AND FLIES TOWARD JESUS!!

NOW THE WORD EYE IN HEBREW MEANS TO
STAY IN A GIVEN PLACE OR STATE, RELATION
OR EXPECTANCY, AND TO DWELL.

IN THE GREEK EYE MEANS TO WEAR AWAY, A WOUND, A RUT OR WORN PATH, TO GNAW OR CHEW OR TO EAT. IMAGINE IF YOU COULD SEE YOUR SOUL AND THE PATH OF PAIN THAT’S BEEN WORN LIKE THIS. LET IT GO!!

HOLDING ONTO THE PAIN ATE AWAY AT ME AND GNAWED AT MY SOUL. THERE WAS A WORN BEATEN PATH BACK TO MY PAIN. I HAD TO LET GO!!!

SEE; I ALLOWED MY THOUGHTS TO BREED IN MY MIND AND KEEP ME BOUND TO MY PAIN. THE PATH TO IT WAS WELL WORN. I WENT THERE EVERY DAY. I WAS IN A PLACE OF EXPECTANCY, I EXPECTED TO FEEL BAD, SO I DID. I STAYED IN THE GIVEN PLACE AND DWELLED AND DWELLED ON MY THOUGHTS. AND AS LONG AS I DID , THEY WORE AWAY AT MY SOUL.

THE ONLY WAY TO BE FREE IS TO CAST IT OUT IN JESUS NAME EVERY TIME THE THOUGHTS COME TO YOU. EVENTUALLY THE DEVIL QUITS THROWING THEM SO MUCH BECAUSE YOU KNOW HOW TO FIGHT THEM. JUST DO IT! I HAD A LADY CALL ME ONE DAY AND SHE WAS STRUGGLING IN HER MARRIAGE BECAUSE HER HUSBAND ISN’T SAVED. AFTER AWHILE SHE SAID UYLONDA, HOW DO YOU NOT THINK ABOUT WHAT ALL HE’S DONE TO YOU ANYMORE? AND I TOLD HER… I JUST DON’T. I LEARNED TO THINK ABOUT JESUS, AND HOW HE SAYS IN ISAIAH 26:3 THOU SHALT KEEP HIM IN PERFECT PEACE WHOSE MIND IS STAYED ON THEE!!

PAIN MAKES YOU CHANGE. IT’S MOTIVATING. WITHOUT IT WE WOULD SIT AND DO NOTHING TO MAKE THINGS CHANGE. THE FIRST TIME I EVER WENT TO A COUNSELOR WAS THE FIRST TIME DELORNE LEFT ME. HE WAS GONE FOR THREE WEEKS. THE COUNSELOR ASKED ME WHY NOW? WHY NOT BEFORE? THE ANSWER WAS BECAUSE I WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN I HAD TO DO SOMETHING TO MAKE IT BETTER. MOST OF THE TIME THIS IS WHAT WE DO. WE WAIT UNTIL THE PAIN IS SO BAD THAT WE FINALLY REACH OUT. PAIN CATAPULTED ME TO GOD. KEEP LOOKING TO HIM, HAVE FAITH, WHICH IS HOPE. ACT ON IT AND DON’T STOP.

I TURNED TO GOD AND PLEADED FOR HELP AND HE ANSWERED. I KEPT SAYING GOD, CHANGE HIM AND IT WILL GET BETTER. GOD TOLD ME TO CHANGE. A SAYING I FOUND IS: THE HEART CANNOT BE CHANGED UNTIL THE MIND IS CHANGED.
ROM. 12:2 SAYS AND BE NOT CONFORMED TO THIS WORLD: BUT BE YE TRANSFORMED BY THE RENEWING OF YOUR MIND, I ALWAYS ASKED HOW? HOW DO I CHANGE GOD? FINALLY I REALIZED HOW. PRAYER AND STUDY IS HOW YOU ARE RENEWED. GET INTO GODS WORD TO CHANGE. I HAD TO RENEW MY MIND, LET GO OF WHO I WAS, AND BECOME WHO HE IS AND WHAT HE WANTED ME TO BE. I HAD TO LET CHRIST LIVE IN ME TRANSFORMING ME INTO THE LIKENESS OF HIM.
2 COR.3:18 SAYS BUT WE ALL, WITH OPEN FACE BEHOLDING AS IN A GLASS THE GLORY OF THE LORD, ARE CHANGED INTO THE SAME IMAGE FROM GLORY TO GLORY, EVEN AS BY THE SPIRIT OF THE LORD. I HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO CHANGE WHEN I STARTED SEEKING HIM FIRST. I WAS LIKE THE CATERPILLAR---HE HAS NO CHOICE BUT TO CHANGE INTO A BUTTERFLY.

HOW DO YOU GET TO THE POINT OF FREEDOM FROM THE CATERPILLAR IN YOUR SAFE LITTLE COCOON OF MISERY, TO THE BUTTERFLY?!!! FREE TO GO ON IN LIFE BEING WHAT GOD SAID YOU CAN BE?

WELL MAYBE YOU WANT THINGS TO CHANGE, BUT YOU DON’T DO ANYTHING TO MAKE THAT HAPPEN. YOU LOOK AT SOMEONE WHO HAS CHANGED AND HOPE THAT JUST BY LISTENING TO WHAT GOD HAS DONE FOR THEM, IT WILL MAKE A CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE? I USE TO DO JUST THAT. I WOULD LISTEN TO JOYCE MEYER, PAULA WHITE, AND OTHER WOMEN SPEAK ON THE CHANGES IN THEIR LIFE. IT WOULD EXCITE ME TO CHANGE, BUT I WOULD THINK THAT I LEARNED ENOUGH BY LISTENING TO THEM NOW ITS GOING TO CHANGE ME, BECAUSE I HAD HEARD FROM GOD THROUGH THEM!! JESUS SAYS TO GET UP AND DO IT YOURSELF. THE SECOND HALF OF ROMANS 12:2 SAYS THAT YE MAY PROVE WHAT IS THAT
GOOD, AND ACCEPTABLE, AND PERFECT WILL OF GOD. PROVE YOURSELF WORTHY. LIKE THE MAN IN THE PARABLE OF THE TALENTS. HE HAD ONE TALENT AND BURIED IT. HE WAS AFRAID TO TRY FOR MORE, AFRAID HE WOULD FAIL. SO HE ENDED UP WITH WHAT HE ALREADY HAD. GOD WANTS YOU TO MULTIPLY YOUR TALENTS, SO GET UP AND PUT YOUR TALENTS TO WORK FOR YOU. YOU SAY, WHY BOTHER IF I'M GOING TO FAIL? GIVE IT TO GOD AND WATCH IT CHANGE. YOU HAVE THE MEANS IN FRONT OF YOU. HE’S GIVEN THEM TO YOU, USE THEM.. WHAT ARE THEY?…………..

1) PRAYER: DAILY, NOT JUST THE ONES YOU PRAYED YESTERDAY. THEIR NOT MULTIPLYING YOU TODAY. PRAY DAILY. REALLY PRAY. GET WITH GOD ALONE AND LISTEN TO WHAT HE WANTS YOU TO PRAY. WRITE YOUR PRAYERS DOWN. GOD GIVES YOU ANSWERS THROUGH PRAYER--MULTIPLYING YOUR TALENTS. ONE PRAYER YESTERDAY IS NOT ENOUGH TO MOVE YOU TODAY. TO DO HIS WILL PRAY TODAY. MULTIPLY YOUR TALENTS. GOD SAID TO.

2) READ AND STUDY HIS WORD: GET FED. MATT. 4:4 SAYS IT IS WRITTEN MAN SHALL NOT LIVE BY BREAD ALONE, BUT BY EVERY WORD THAT PROCEEDETH OUT OF THE MOUTH OF GOD. MULTIPLICATION OF FOOD MAKES YOU GROW. YOU CAN’T LIVE TODAY ON WHAT YOU ATE YESTERDAY. YOU HAVE TO READ HIS WORD DAILY. (MULTIPLY YOUR FOOD, MULTIPLY YOUR WORK FOR HIM) THROUGH PRAYER AND STUDY: TO FORGIVE, TO LET GO OF ANGER, HATE, BITTERNESS, VENGEANCE, ANYTHING THAT GOES AGAINST HIS WORD. BUT, TO DO IT YOU HAVE TO HAVE BEEN FED. YOU HAVE TO HAVE STRENGTH TO LIVE. YOUR STRENGTH COMES FROM PRAYER AND HIS WORD. IT IS LIFE TO US. OUR SPIRIT HAS TO BE FED, SO THEREFORE; DAILY READING OF THE BIBLE IS A NECESSITY TO SURVIVE. PS 119:105 SAYS THY WORD IS A LAMP UNTO MY FEET. AND A LIGHT UNTO MY PATH. THIS IS WHAT HE IS SAYING: READ AND STUDY MY WORD AND YOU WILL KNOW THE WAY TO GO AND WHAT TO DO. I FOUND A QUOTE FROM A BOOK OR SOMETHING I HAD READ AND IT SAYS CHRISTIAN GROWTH IS A DAILY PROCESS OF TAKING OFF THE OLD SELF ATTITUDES, BELIEFS, AND BEHAVIORS WHICH REFLECT THE DARK SIDE OF OUR NATURE WHICH IS SIN, AND CHANGING TO THOSE CHARACTERISTICS THAT REFLECT THE PRESENCE OF CHRIST IN OUR LIVES. IT’S THE ONLY WAY TO RENEW THE SPIRIT OF OUR MIND. EPH 4:22-24 SAYS: THAT YE PUT OFF CONCERNING THE FORMER CONVERSATION THE OLD MAN, WHICH IS CORRUT ACCORDING TO THE DECEITFUL LUSTS; 23 AND BE RENEWED IN THE SPIRIT OF YOUR MIND; 24 AND THAT YE PUT ON THE NEW MAN, WHICH AFTER GOD IS CREATED IN RIGHTEOUSNESS AND TRUE HOLINESS.

MULTIPLY YOUR TALENTS. USE THEM (DON’T BURY THEM IN YOU) WHEN YOU USE WHAT GOD HAS DONE FOR YOU TO HELP OTHERS YOUR MULTIPLYING YOUR TALENTS! PUT THEM OUT THERE TO BENEFIT OTHERS AND MAKE A PROFIT., DO THIS TO CHANGE. 1 JOHN 5:4 SAYS FOR WHATSOEVER IS BORN OF GOD, OVERCOMETH THE WORLD. QUIT BURYING YOUR PAIN AND FEEDING ON YOU PAST.

IS YOUR LIFE THE SAME TODAY AS A YEAR AGO OR YEARS AGO? HOW MANY WILL SAY (TO YOURSELF) OH THINGS HAVE CHANGED. AND THEY HAVE……
YOU LISTEN ONLY TO CHRISTIAN MUSIC, WATCH TBN ALL THE TIME, GO TO CHURCH ALL THE TIME, YOUR INVOLVED IN CHURCH ACTIVITIES ALL THE TIME ETC… BUT SPIRITUALLY NOTHINGS CHANGED!!! YOU’RE THE SAME GROUCHY PERSON AS BEFORE, YOU HAVE A BAD ATTITUDE ALL THE TIME, AND ON AND ON. AND YOU SAY WHY IS THIS? WELL, BECAUSE YOUR FLESH HAS CHANGED SOME THINGS TO PLEASE YOU AND MAKE YOU KNOW THERES CHANGES BUT, YOUR SPIRIT IS STILL THE SAME NO CHANGE!
PROVERBS 15:13 SAYS A MERRY HEART MAKETH A CHEERFUL COUNTENANCE, BUT BY SORROW OF THE HEART THE SPIRIT IS BROKEN. ACT THE WAY GOD SAYS TO, EVEN IF YOUR NOT THERE YET, AND IT CHANGES YOU. SLOWLY YOU START TO CHANGE AND YOUR NOT IN TOUCH WITH YOUR PAIN. YOUR IN TOUCH WITH GOD. THIS IS HOW YOU CHANGE FOREVER.

A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE COMFORTABLE BEING BURDONED. THEY FEEL LIKE THEY DESERVE TO FEEL THIS WAY BECAUSE OF WHATS HAPPENED OR IS HAPPENING TO THEM. THE TRUTH IS, IF JESUS IS YOUR SAVIOR YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO BE MISERABLE. AND IF YOUR NOT SAVED, RECEIVE JESUS AND HE WILL HELP YOU. HE SET YOU FREE WHEN HE DIED ON THE CROSS. LET IT GO, WHATEVER IT IS! DON’T KEEP IT JUST BECAUSE ITS YOUR PAIN AND YOUR COMFORTABLE WITH IT, AND, YOU ALSO DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW TO THINK OF WHO YOU WOULD BE WITHOUT IT. THINK ON JESUS AND HOW HE SAID I WILL SET YOU FREE. JOHN 8:31-32 SAYS… THEN SAID JESUS TO THOSE JEWS WHICH BELIEVED ON HIM, IF YE CONTINUE IN MY WORD, THEN ARE YE MY DISCIPLES INDEED; 32: AND YE SHALL KNOW THE TRUTH, AND THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE. ITS YOUR CHOICE TO STAY CHAINED TO PAIN OR TO STEP UP AND STEP OUT OF IT.
PS. 37:23 SAYS THE STEPS OF A GOOD MAN ARE ORDERED BY THE LORD, AND HE DELIGHTETH IN THY WAY.

STEP UP AND STEP OUT AND GET WHAT GOD HAS FOR YOU, PEACE-LOVE-JOY-HAPPINESS. COME ON… WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?
TAKE THE STEP TODAY STAND FOR JESUS. LET IT ALL GO WHATEVER IT IS, AND BE FREE! FREE LIKE THE BUTTERFLY.

LOVE YA, UYLONDA

My mind is blank as what to write escapes me. I know I haven't written anything in three weeks, but I haven't known what to say. That is truly unusual for me, I always have something to say! So much has been going on that I don't know where to start. I do know that Jesus is calling His people to spend more time with Him. It seems to me that when I say this to people they usually don't get it. Jesus is just like us, only He is Holy and our soon coming King. I also know that not everyone hears from God in the same way. I want to share with you something that was in my devotion I do with my husband, I cried when I read it. It is Jesus talking to us and people just don't get it, He is calling His people to Him in every way possible, We just have to listen!

I just had to send a note to tell you how much I love you and care about you. I saw you yesterday as you were walking with your friends. I waited all day hoping you would want to talk with me also. As evening drew near, I gave you a sunset to close your day and a cool breeze to rest you. And I waited. But you never came. It hurt me, but I still love you because I am your friend.
I saw you fall asleep last night and I longed to touch your brow. So I spilled moonlight on your pillow and your face. Again I waited, wanting to rush down so we could talk. I have so many gifts for you. But you awakened late the next day and rushed back to work. My tears were in the rain.
Today you looked so sad, so all alone. It makes my heart ache because I understand. My friends let me down and hurt me so many times too. But I love you. Oh, if you would only listen to me. I really love you. I try to tell you in the blue sky and in the quiet green grass. I whisper it in the leaves on the trees and breathe it in the colors of the flowers. I shout it to you in the mountain streams and give the birds love songs to sing. I clothe you with warm sunshine and perfume the air with nature's scents. My love for you is deeper than the oceans and bigger than the biggest want or need in your heart.
If you only knew how much I want to help you. I want you to meet my Father. He wants to help you too. My Father is that way, you know. Just call me, ask me, talk with me. I have so much to share with you. Yet I won't hassle you. I'll wait because I love you
Your Friend, Jesus

This is what God wants of us to know. He wants a relationship with us without excuses as to why we can't find time for Him. I hear so many excuses myself from people that it amazes me, so I can only imagine how God feels. God talks to us individually, and in those conversations it is different for everyone. You can hear from the Lord for many reasons and in many ways. Don't deny them. God does not have to come down and speak literally to us, He speaks to us in our spirit, softly, quietly, gently. Just listen and you can hear Him. What is it He is saying to you? In the bible it says Be still and know that I am God. Ps. 46:10. He wants us to hear Him and listen to Him. Just get alone with Him in a quiet place and be still. He is God, and He will speak to you. It is awesome when He does. What is it you may need an answer to? If you give Him time, He will hear you.

Love you, Uylonda

Well here I am down, but not out. The Lord is in control. The enemy is trying to destroy our life and we are not going to let him. The bible says in Romans 8:18 For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. So there you have it. We are suffering, but I take it with the love of Christ. If He suffered for me I can suffer for Him. It does not make it feel any better in my flesh, but my spirit is at peace with it. I may not always know what to say when I'm talking and hurting, but know that my faith in the Lord is NOT diminished in any way. We are on a path the Lord has laid before us, and nothing will stand in His way of accomplishing it; if we are in His will. In Phil 4:6 it says be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. v7 and the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. It means don't worry, no matter how sad you are, or how upset you are, or how bad the situation is; don't worry. Leave it with the Lord. I have talked about my fears this week with people, but it does not mean I am letting myself be overwhelmed with it. It is just when we dwell on things continually that it overwhelms us. I am dwelling on the Lord. In times past I would have dwelled on this and everyone would have known it. I would talk and talk and talk, negatively about things. Now I don't, my fears do come out, but I'm human and that's OK. But, it's wrong to let it change my perception of life and my faith in the Lord. I heard a preacher say that if your doing something for God and it seems like everything is coming against you and hell is right in front of you, God is right there to. If we weren't getting close to the promise that God has for us the enemy wouldn't be trying so hard to destroy what God has built up. That's exciting to me. It means the more Satan throws at us the closer we are. It's how we handle what he throws that affects us. I am praying for this to pass soon, and I will continue to pray until it does. My fears wont take over, my faith in the Lord will. If I gave up and said OK I can't do this what does it accomplish? It doesn't accomplish anything, but defeat. I have to rejoice in the Lord, Phil 4:4 says Rejoice in the Lord alway: and again I say, Rejoice. Just quoting these verses makes me feel better. The enemy wants us to feel bad. If he can get us to concentrate on the things going wrong in our life, it gets us to take our mind off God. This is the very plan he has set before us, to destroy us. But, God says in Phil 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. It's a Philippians night. It's a good word from the Lord that's why. Feel your pain, but don't let it destroy you. The bible also says in Ecc. 1:9 The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is nothing new under the sun. Ecc 3:1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time pluck up that which is planted: 3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; 5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; 7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; 8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and time of peace.

God is in control, I will praise Him and let Him know that I believe in Him. The way you talk to your earthly father is how God wants you to talk to Him, with faith that it's OK to talk to Him. So, talk to Lord and see what He has to say to you. Thank you God for listening to me, and making me feel better.

Thanks to my dad for talking to me tonight. I love you.

Please pray for my family, Uylonda

Life

'Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain.'

Love Uylonda

I am down, but not out. I have no energy today. I have dealt with a family crisis all day. I feel wiped out. Satan is trying to tear down what God is building up. But, when you stand strong in the Lord the enemy will not win. I am so tired, it's exhausting.

When life hands you lemons, make lemonade!!!

You know that saying when life hands you lemons make lemonade. Well I'm trying to, but my heart is aching. There are some things in life you just don't understand. Why do people go and do what they say they never would? I know I am just in a battle to see how my faith will stand, but it hurts. Here is a poem from my daily devotional, it just so happened to be today's devotion. I prayed that it would give me peace before I read my devotion. I asked God to give me a word from Him of peace, He did!!

He sat by the fire of sevenfold heat,
As He looked at the precious ore,
And closer He bent with a searching gaze
As He heated it more and more,
He knew He had ore that could stand the test,
And He wanted the finest gold
To mold as a crown for the King to wear,
Set with gems with a price untold.
So He laid our gold in the burning fire,
Though we would have asked for delay,
And He watched the dross that we had not seen,
And it melted and passed away.
And the gold grew brighter and yet more bright,
But our eyes were so dim with tears,
We saw but the fire---not the Master's hand,
And questioned with anxious fears.
Yet our gold shone out with a richer glow,
As it mirrored a Form above,
That bent over the fire, though unseen by us,
With a look of unspeakable love.
Should we think that it pleases His loving heart
To cause us a moment's pain?
Not so! for He saw through the present cross
The joy of eternal gain.
(So He waited there with a watchful eye,
With a love that is strong and sure,
And His gold did not suffer a bit more heat,
Than was needed to make it pure.)

I pray that what ever may be testing you or trying you, you find peace through God above. He doesn't let anything happen in our lives for nothing. Everything is there to refine us and make us stronger. Count it all blessings to have the tests, He's using it to make your crown of pure gold.

I thank you Father God, for all that you have blessed me with and thank you for trusting me with all these tests.

Be Blessed, Uylonda

Prayer

I love the rain! I truly do, I have never minded if it rains. But, if we have plans to do something outside I don' want it to rain. But, I don't mind the rain. This should of went with last weeks blog, but I just found this picture the other day.

I wanted to write about prayer today. I am starting a bible study on Tuesday mornings called Becoming a woman of prayer. I have wanted to do it for a while, but for some reason never could get it together. Well, now we have the books and I am so excited to start. I can't wait until next Tuesday.

I wanted to do this study about three years ago, but to be honest I wasn't ready. I was afraid! I thought that I might have to pray all the time or something and I wasn't ready for that. Now I am, not to pray all the time, but to do the study. It just shows how much I've grown in my walk with God. I have grown to know that that's not what prayer is about. It is about having a relationship with God. The reason I want to do this study now on prayer is because like everything else, I want to grow more. I had a bible study at our old church for five years. We did other studies of this series. Becoming a woman of freedom, great study!! Also, Becoming a woman of faith, good one to. But, I wasn't willing to do Becoming a woman of prayer then. Prayer scares people. The reason is because we don't understand it. We have been made to think that prayer has to be done a certain way, or it's not right. We think we have to pray eloquently or it won't count. We think we can't pray as good as the next person or so on and so on. Well all of that is not true. There is no one way to pray. If your talking to God, then that's prayer. I believe we need to be taught on prayer in church. People honestly don't know how to pray so therefore; they don't pray. Or their prayers are predictable. The same prayer for dinner, for bed, for church, etc... It never changes. Have you ever heard people pray and it seems like they are saying the same thing over and over even though it's different words, or different people?!

I have told you in past blogs to spend time with God in prayer through alone time with Him. Turn on your music and pray, or get on your knees, or however you feel comfortable doing it. Just pray. Don't be afraid of prayer. The devil doesn't want you to pray because he knows God answers prayer. So spend some time with the Lord, and change your life.

Love you, Uylonda

My Music

Bring me joy, bring me peace, bring me anything that brings you glory, bring the chance to be free! That is what the pain is all about. Without pain we could never be set free, and we would never know the true love of Jesus.

We draw closer to the Lord in hard times, sad times, dark times. When life is going OK, we tend to not need Him as much. He blesses us in the hard times. If you can thank God in the rainy times of life, and come through the storm stronger; than you have been blessed by the Lord.

I know this is true because I have been through the storms, and I came through them blessed. I drew closer to God in the bad times, and He taught me lessons that I never would have known if not for the storm. I had nothing and no one else to lean on, but Jesus and He saved my life. We have to learn how to trust Him. He wants us to praise Him always. If you can't praise Him in the storm, then you most likely won't praise Him when things are going good.

Listen to the words of these songs, and praise Him. No matter what you are going through praise Him. He loves you and wants you free from any pain.

(May we be faithful to do our part, which is simply to suffer for Him, and to place Christ's part on Him and then Leave it there.)
From my devotional: Streams in the Desert.

I know that someone who is reading this is hurting, and needs to know this. Be blessed and trust in Jesus.

Love ya, Uylonda

What has you under control?

What to write about. I guess I should say something about what I've been experiencing with people lately. That would be; being set free of that which controls you. By that, I mean controls your emotions, your attitude and how things affect you, how you handle things. You know-you! How many people have things they need delivered from, or set free from? Some people it's smoking, or drugs, or alcohol. Some people need delivered from demons, and spirits that have free reign in their lives. Some people just need delivered or set free from themselves. They are comfortable being miserable, right where they are. It's become such a way of life for them that the thought of not being bound by something, is scary. They don't know who they would be if they didn't have the junk in their lives. I know, I have been there. Praise the Lord, I don't have that junk anymore. I got sick and tired of being sick and tired, and I was finally set free from it. Now I still have issues from life that pop up, but they are just that, issues. Nothing more. They don't get me depressed and down on life anymore. I just deal with them with God, and go on. I don't always like what it is I'm going through, but I go through it and go on. It no longer has control over me to get me out of control. I gave God control of my life, and it is easier to live because of Him.

The only true way to be set free from that which has control over you is to let God take it. He will, and can if you let Him. I know people who want others to take it away for them. It doesn't work that way. If you want a life that is not out of control, then let God help you. People can't do it for you. You have to be willing to do all you can do to take control of your life, with God's help. And, as I've said before you have to spend time with the Lord. That is the key.

You can go to church, listen to tapes, go to church conferences, talk to counselors or friends, and still never be set free. All of that can be good for you, but it's not the answer. Get together with God to get set free. Why is it that we don't want to take the time to do what is good for us? Is it because it takes effort? The saying that I have heard says (If it's worth having, it's going to take effort to get it.) How much effort have you honestly and truly put into the things that are weighing you down? Have you truly given God the chance to help you? Spend that time with Him, and find out just how much easier it is to find the effort to change.

I know this isn't for everyone, but it's for some. I honestly am asking you to give God a chance and see how your life changes for the better. The truth is, it is that simple. Give it to God. He wants it, and He wants to help you. He is just waiting for you to stand up and say OK God, here I am. Listen to the song I have on here called "Stand" It will bless you, it did me. If I can help any of you please contact me, I would love to talk with you. Just leave me a message, or email me or call me.

Love you, and Bless you, Uylonda

Spending time with the Lord

It's been 5 days since I wrote, so I figured it was time to write again. I enjoy getting your comments. It helps me know that I am helping others, and this is why I am supposed to be writing this blog. What a word-blog! I hope to get comments in the future from someone I don't even know and have them tell me how it's helping them. Won't that be cool? Remember to let your friends and family know about this to, pass it on.

I have been reading and talking to people, men and women both. It seems like everyone is searching for an easy way to solve their problems. Well, I know and easy way!! Spend time with the Lord. That's it... I used to say back in the day when I was a MESS, Lord how do I get through this? He always whispered (spend time with me) So, finally one day I said OK God, there's nothing else to do, so I am going to spend quality time with you. I did, I do, and it transforms your life. God is not asking us to not have a life outside of Him. He is asking us to have a life with Him in it. It hurts Him when we hurt, and He knows that if we would only give in and spend time with Him, our lives would be transformed. Like it says in Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind. How do you renew your mind? Spend time with God, your father, your creator, your friend. You know how it feels when your family and friends here on earth seem to be busy and forget you at times. Well; that's how God feels. He hurts and feels left out when you don't spend time with Him.

How do you spend time with God to change your life? You get alone with Him, and read the bible and pray. It's that simple! It will transform your life. When things happen in your life and your putting God first in your life, you don't get overwhelmed. You have a peace in the midst of the storm. You will not be able to understand how you feel peaceful, but you will be peaceful. And, it does not happen overnight. It takes time for you to get to that point. The more you spend time with Him, the more you grow and learn to not get anxious, and worry. The bible says in Philippians 4:6 Be anxious for nothing just pray. You also can just turn on worship music, close your office or bedroom door and sit quietly and listen to the music. Your spirit will pray for you this way. Sometimes I'm at a loss for words and don't know exactly what to pray so I do this. It is so rewarding. God, just wants us to spend time with Him in prayer, praise or worship. You don't have to spend all day either. If all you can give at first is five minutes, then give five minutes. Over time you will spend more time with Him. But, don't let it overwhelm you to think that you have to spend hours everyday in prayer. God looks on the heart. If He knows your heart is doing it in the right way, He is going to bless you. OH my goodness, how it changes your life. My life would not be where it is today if I had not of spent time with God. I will write my testimony down soon, but not now to much noise in the house. I have to have quite time to write, and not be disturbed.

My husband and I are starting a fellowship this Sunday, October 5th at our house. It is the beginning of a ministry that God has birthed in both of us. We are excited and know that God has something great in store. If you live close by and want to come, email me, call me or whatever and let me know.

I hope this helped someone, Bless you all Uylonda