I wouldn't want to do 2010 over

This has been a year to forget, I mean remember.!! NOT!!! I wouldn't want to do 2010 over, and pray I never have to endure this junk again. One day I will write it all out on here. It won't be to long from now, but not at this moment. My life has been in turmoil for quite a while now, and I am just coming out of the storm. I pray no more. Just this week I have actually felt at peace with how things are starting to look. I know God is in control, and boy have I tested His patience with me in the last year. The devil has thrown so many things in my direction to try and stop my walk with God. I even contemplated some of them. Yes, I have been weak. I still am, but I am getting my strength back. I thank God, that He has not let go of me. We are not worthy of His grace and mercy, but He gives it to us anyway. There have been times this year that I have been so distraught that I would not listen to God. I was so angry and hurt with the ways things were going that I just said not now God. I literally said that. Am I pleased with that? No. Am I ashamed of it? No. I learned a great lesson in the walk I have had with God this year. I am excited to go with the changes that are coming. I have matured in the Lord this year and matured myself this year. We never stop learning as long as we are living if we are open to that opportunity; and I was. I have got to do what I posted in my last post in March of this year. Got to get a grasp of that thing with in me, and change what needs to be changed no matter what. Change for the better is good, and I need that change. Why I have fought it so long I don't know. But, I do know that I don't want to fight that change which needs to be done any more. It is not a coincidence of the things that have happened to get me where I am. I am thankful for it all. I trust in the Lord so much more, and I need to show Him just that. He is waiting on me. I don't have to wait on Him, He just needs to hear me say I am taking that step toward you Lord, and He will run to me when I do. Just like the prodigal son in the bible. He left his father and came back hoping to work as a slave for him, and his father saw him coming home from a long way off and ran to his son. He didn't wait for his son to get there, when he saw him coming home He went to him. The same is true of our Father in Heaven. He will come to us if we just turn to Him. I love Him so, and thank Him for every thing; good and bad. Because His word says, all things work together for good, to those that love the Lord their God. Romans 8:28 And, I love Him so.

Pray for me and I am praying for you, Uylonda

Habits, they keep us where we are.

I haven't written on here in 10 months. I am crying now because I have not had a reason not to. I just let life get in my way. Thinking that no one would want to hear anything I had to say when my life has problems. But you know what? I was wrong. I have talked to people in the last 10 months that needed to hear what I had to say, and thank God I did talk to them because I needed to hear it. Every time we speak of what God has done for us we are doing something good for someone. So, I felt sorry for myself and quit writing. Not gonna do that again :)


So in the last 10 months I have been through a lot, but I am moving on. Anyway; there are things I need to do to better myself, and make myself feel better. I need to loose weight, but it keeps finding me!!!! I know, lame wasn't it? I need to loose weight. I feel bad because of this. I feel bad physically and emotionally. I went to try to buy me something new to wear today, and all I could feel while I was looking at all the clothes was my big belly. Seriously; we had just ate and I felt sick. Not from the food, but from being over weight and miserable. I have needed to loose weight for the last 8 years. Now, I am not huge by any means, but I am to me. I might as well need to loose 100 pounds because what I need to loose is just as hard. I don't know where to start, or let me rephrase that. I don't know how to let go of the things I need to let go of to get started. I know I need to change my HABITS, they are what keeps me where I am. I go to bed every night and say I am going to change in the morning. Morning comes and I say oh I have to do this and this, and it keeps me from doing what I need to really do. I make excuses that is what I do. I have asked God to help me and He does. Then I keep going as if that help isn't even there. Let me explain; I prayed for healing in my body to be able to exercise and I got it. I prayed for the power 90 exercise videos from TV and went to a yard sale and found the entire set for $3.00. Then I prayed for food ideas and found a great video at the store for $1.00. I also found a great website with recipes and food listed in an easy way to read it. I prayed for a free membership to the gym so I could use weights to help strengthen my muscles, and I got it. So; what is my problem? (ME) I am the problem, and until I stop looking at what I am not willing to work to get, I just need to quit whining about being over weight. So tomorrow I am starting over. Please pray for me through this. I don't want to fail, and I don't have any reason to. The only thing keeping me from my goal is ME.

I said that to say this; God wants us to succeed, but we have the power to fail. You know the saying I will when I can get around to it? Well, I had a friend give me a round toit one day. It looks like this O. It's just a round piece of paper with the words a round toit on it. Now I don't have an excuse to not do it. God will provide us with what we need to succeed. We just have to be willing to see that and use it. I am overweight because I keep making excuses to be. I am unhappy with myself because I choose to keep in my life what makes me unhappy. I am tired because I don't use the gym God gave me for free to feel better. I am what ever it is I am because of ME. We have the power to change our lives, and yet we choose to stay bound to the things that keep us miserable. I want things to be different in my life, so what am I waiting for? ME! Everything I need to make a difference in my life is right before me, all I have to do is reach for it and make the change. It's like the words from Michael Jackson's song, If you want to make this world a better place take a look in the mirror and make a change. It is the beginning of a new year, and we have the opportunity to change our lives and those around us so what are we waiting for? I have always been afraid of failure. Afraid to start something because I may fail. But, by not even trying I have failed. And the bible says that fear is not of the Lord. If I have Him, then I can accomplish what it is I need to do. It may not be in the end what I thought it would be, but it will be what God wanted it to be. I may not have gone where I needed to go, but I ended up where God wanted me to be. Oh how we make the way long. Give your problems to the Lord and He will help you. Philippians 4:13 says, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I pray that what ever it is you need, you let God help you. And pray the same for me. Let's stand with the Lord to accomplish what it is we need in our lives.

Be Blessed, Uylonda

The Climb

I love this song, it's about the journey we take that makes us. Listen to the words, and give it a try.

Your Get Up And Go..........

In Malachi 3:10 the Lord says Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the Lord of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it.

He is not just talking about the tithe of money. He is talking about our time and walk with Him as well. We have to give Him our all and not make excuses as to why we don’t do it. It’s a new year and there is so much we can do to change, if we are willing to let the Lord work through us. We just have to be willing to quit listening to our flesh. It is lazy and wants to do nothing that is good for us; or is going to make it have to get up and go. Have you ever thought about it like that? If something is bad for us its not hard to do. Then if something is good for us its hard to do! It takes no effort to sit on the couch and watch TV, or sit at the computer all day. It takes no effort to go through the drive thru at McDonalds, and it takes no effort to grab that bag of chips at home. But, to get up and move to do what is good for you, takes physical and mental and emotional effort. You say you want to loose weight, and start exercising and read your bible more and pray more, and so many other things… Question is, what are you doing to accomplish those goals?

I had a rock one time with a saying on it that said, “ My get up and go got up and went”. I would laugh when I read it, but it was true! I used it as an excuse for myself to laugh, and not do anything about the things I needed to get up and do!! We have got to hear what God is telling us. He is not going to do it for us, we have to use our own (free) will to decide to work with Him. He wants us motivated about what He can do for us, and excited about it. We then can be a witness to others about how we got what God promised us. Do you think that that may be why it’s hard to do the will of God? It will witness to others, and Satan doesn’t want that; therefore he tells us it takes to much effort to read the bible daily. He tells us it takes to much effort to pray daily. He tells us it takes to much effort to get healthy. He is a LIAR!! He tells us all the lies to keep us spiritually bound and mentally bound, and physically and emotionally bound. We stay bound by not getting up and going. Remember if it’s good for you, then you have to work for it, if its bad for you the devil hands it to you. I don’t want anything he has to offer, so this year I am going to get up and get going. Will you?

Love ya, Uylonda

Do you know?

Do you know for sure your going to Heaven? It's not as simple as yes. You have to know within you that you are. Living your life by the design that God made after you received His son as your Savior. That is truly how you will know. Are you reading God's word, are you spending time in prayer; everyday? Are you seeing a change in your life? Do others see that change? If you truly got saved there is a change within you that resonates on the outside of you. You can't know Jesus, and stay the same way you were before you got saved. Galatians 6:7 says Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. 8: For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; (death) but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting. What are you doing with your life? There is a complete change in you when you start to live for God, with His son Jesus as your Savior. Do you still cuss, still watch things that God wouldn't want you to. Go places that you shouldn't. Don't think that God is not watching and not judging.

That change is not only spiritual, but emotional and it will change you physically. There will be a peace about you that others see, and want to have. That peace is Jesus. Do you have peace? He says in the bible that His peace passes all understanding. Do you have that peace? The only way to have it is through Jesus as your Savior living within you. Think about that for a while. If He is in you how can you not have peace? He is to be your focus, not your trials and troubles. Not your bills, or your kids, or your husband or your job etc. Jesus is to be your focus. When bad things happen, and they will; even as a child of God. But, with the peace of Jesus living in you and you looking to Him you handle it in a different way. We are not supposed to be depressed as Christians. When bad things happen our flesh wants to focus on that, and tear us down. But, with the peace of Jesus living in you and you giving the problem to Him it doesn't destroy you.

I'll give you an example in my life of how I know that Jesus lives in me and I am truly saved. My husband fell off of a roof in February of this year, and he works for himself. So, this could have destroyed us, but it didn't. We gave the problem to the Lord, and didn't worry about it. You may say how can you do that? Well, we had no choice but to trust Him. He told us He would supply all our needs, Philippians 4:19 says But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus, and He did. God delivered us out of it without a financial crisis. We never missed a house payment, or any of our other bills. We were supplied for without asking anyone for help. They all called us and came by with food, and money, or mailed money to help pay our bills. (I know the world helps people to, but with worry and fear.) I had no fear through this. I trusted God to supply what we needed and He did. Even if it had of meant that we lost our house and had to move into an apartment etc., we were fine with the outcome. How, because of the peace that passes all understanding that we can't explain. I had so much peace through that trial that I can't explain it except it be for Jesus. Thank you Lord, I love you so much with all my heart and soul. As the song says, Jesus bring the rain. It's meaning is God, if that's what it takes for me to love you then bring the rain. I will worship and adore you and praise you through the rain. I have had a lot of rain in my life, and I didn't always praise Him. There were times that I thought I would lose my mind, and times that I thought that if I just ended my life the pain would all go away!! I was so wrong. I was in so much pain, I was looking at me and not Jesus. That is why I can now say that if you Know Jesus you can't be miserable. He has changed me from the inside out. Every day is a new day to praise Him and love Him and Thank Him for ALL that is good in it.

Do you know Jesus, and that kind of peace? If not, then bow your head and ask Him for that peace. He will not ignore you. He is waiting for you right now. All you have to do is say this: Jesus, please forgive me of my sins, come into my life and Save me. I believe that you died on the cross to save me from my sins. And I want that peace within that you say surpasses all our understanding. I love you Lord Jesus, my redeemer and friend. And I am now a child of God. Thank you Lord God. In Jesus name, Amen

If you said that prayer with all sincerity He is just, and saved you from your sins. It's now up to You, not Him to change you. It starts with you. Make that change to change your life one day at a time. He is waiting to bless you with that peace. He loves you enough to do that. Philippians 4:6 says Be anxious for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made know unto God, 7: And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

I love you with love of Christ that's in me, Uylonda

You can't be miserable if you know Jesus.......

What? Yes it's true, if you know Jesus you shouldn't be miserable. He is life and peace and happiness. Nehemiah 8:10 says, for the joy of the Lord is your strength. Do you have joy? There is nothing sad or bad or mad about Him. So, if you are any of those things, think on Jesus and be changed. I was driving the other day and this just popped into my mind. You can't be miserable if you know Jesus. I was thinking about things going on in my life with people in it who are miserable. They proclaim to know and love Jesus, but they are so miserable. All they do is complain about this or that, and their never truly happy with anything! Some of these people look as if they they could just explode with anger and venom and hate and unhappiness at ANY minute. Is this showing the love of Jesus in your life? I don't think so. It is sad when I see people like this, and I see people like this every where. I was at a salon yesterday and a lady working the counter looked so sad behind her eyes. I prayed for her peace; I know she needs it. She was just so sad behind her eyes. Anyway, are you one of those people who proclaim to be born again, a child of God, and a lover of Jesus? If so, have you looked in a mirror lately? Do you look like a person who is happy and joyful, or mad, sad and not glad about anything? This is something to think about; it's serious. It shows the true nature of your heart. How do people act around you? Are they glad to see you, or glad when you leave? Are you joyful in your heart? Are you someone you would truly want to be friends with? If Jesus is love and He is, and He says to think on things that are pure and true and lovely to stay happy and peaceful then why is it most people think on the pain of the past that they can't change, or why do they think on the pain of today, or why do they think of the things that they have no control over and let it destroy them? Why do people think on negative things when God says think on the positive? Give this some real thought, are you really happy or just acting happy? As I said in my last post, Jesus says if there be any of these things peace love joy happiness, think on these things. This is what truly gives us a positive outlook on life. How can you honestly think that if you think about all the junk in your life that it's not going to affect you in a negative way? Give it a moment and think about what truly makes you happy right now, and then after that minute think about what is not making you happy right now and weigh the measure of how your heart felt. God doesn't say there won't be things go wrong in our lives, but He does say don't let those things destroy you. Don't let them make you into something you truly don't want to be. In 2 Corinthians 12: 7-10 it says And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundnce of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure. 8  For this thing I besought the Lord three times, that it might depart from me.  9  And He said unto me.  (My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.)  Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  10  Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in destresses for Christ's sake:  for when I am weak, then am I strong..   He is strong in our weaknesses. Glory to Him, and this thorn etc...  We are to thank God always, this gives us strength to fight Satan our enemy who is the one who makes us weak. There is no weakness in God, so to stand on His word and proclaim it over our lives this is what will make it a positive happy joyful life. Do what God says and you won't be miserable no matter the circumstances.  It's true if you give it a chance, I'm living proof..

Love ya, Uylonda
Leave me a message if this touched you in some way.

I was just reading a devotional about Jesus storing up our treasures and I started thinking about other stuff to. As I was reading; for some reason I started thinking about my dad. He is having surgery once again tomorrow to remove cancer polyps from his bladder. I know he is in God's hands, but I am concerned for him, and rightfully so. I started thinking about the time on fathers day 2007 that he almost left us for Heaven. We watched as he struggled for air and realized how we could be without him. I have never told him this, but he's reading it now. I was scared and sad. I saw my dad, this strong man I had looked up to laying there on the hospital bed looking like a little child. He was so sick, and I was helpless to help him; other than pray. Prayer was the only thing any of us could do at that time, and it worked. I have had friends praying for him for the past two years. Every once in awhile I will run into someone I haven't seen in awhile and they will ask, how is your dad? They say I have been praying for him. When he was sick that fathers day and I watched him curled up on that bed trying to find a way to breathe, he was helpless. I ran my hand through his hair to let him know I was there. He looked up to see who it was, and I believe he was surprised. I wanted him to know that I was there. I want him to know that I love him, and I don't want to lose him, not yet.

As I was thinking about his struggle to breathe I thought about peoples relationships with God. Some times it's hard to breathe and we struggle, but God is right there. He is stroking our brow and holding us close to let us know that he is there. But, do we recognize Him? Or do we just feel something and not think about it and go on suffering? God wants you to trust in Him in every situation of your lives, but do you?